T: Colin, just finished listening to all that. Went through a minor version of exactly the same thing today at work. People are at their wit's end and only seeing the world through their own lens. None of this has any bearing on you and what you are going through. Blank was talking about Blank--also, he's an "entertainer." You may have taken personally what he meant generally. Who cares? He kept redirecting off to his perceived listeners. Or so I thought. That is what I would expect a "radio personality" to do. You have had other interactions with him when he was not wearing that persona, but when the persona is on, so it goes.
You need to take care of yourself. I am concerned that you are not doing so--and I am relieved that the shower is fixed.
C: That's essentially what J said, too, about Blank. That is helpful to me.
As for taking care of myself--what can I say? This is hell. It is what it is right now. I don't drink. I run stairs. I suspect you mean more than this. But it is what it is. You know what it is, and you know why. I am in the trench. What can I say besides let's hope I am strong enough to endure, and that this will pass, and I will not be in the trench. And no, I don't mean dead. I mean where I should be. With the impact I should be having. And with what I should have.