Note to self, to document this moment: 8:30 AM, December 5. Tears streaming down my cheeks, listening to Marvin Gaye's "I Heard It Through the Grapevine," having completed final version of "Girls of the Nimbus." I have never written anything better or more moving or beautiful. It's as strong as "Fitty." A work for the ages. Goddamn these evil fucking people. Also wrote a 1200 word essay on Duke Ellington and The Nutcracker. Keep going. Try to. One moment more.